Your word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path. --Psalm 119:105
Commit to reading the Bible every day. Find a devotional book or other resource that will give you some guidance. If your spouse is open to it, see if they will commit to daily Bible reading with you. Begin submitting each area of your life to its guidance and start building on the rock.
What parts of your life are in the greatest need of God's counsel? Where do you feel the most susceptible to failure? What are you asking God to show you through His Word?
What a difference a weekend can make.
Last week, I was sharing with a friend that I was going to have to find a new church. We didn't think we would feel comfortable going back after we thought we had been judged by the Pastor. By Friday, after speaking to another person from the church about it, I had decided that 1. I had overreacted, 2. It wasn't right for me to be so unforgiving and ready to quit.
I had been talking to God all weekend and trying to figure out what I really wanted and needed. I am thirsting knowledge. Right now, my house is built on the sand of my own logic, my best guesses, and my latest reasoning. I know that if I don't seek to understand God's will, that my house will eventually fall. I have a real need to study His word and to understand the fundamentals. What I want is to grow my spirituality. I want to cultivate and deepen what I already have just based on my limited experiences so far.
So, I went to church Sunday with these things weighing on my heart. And through my Pastor's sermon, I got a very clear message from God. What I needed and wanted were right here. I was being called to put everything I had into not only seeking these things that I need and want, but into building this church. I knew that with or without my husband, this is what "I" had to do. I've never been so sure about something in all my life.
I am committing to reading the Bible everyday. If you have any devotionals or guides to recommend, they would be greatly appreciated. Additionally, if you have a Bible to recommend, I need some help in that area. I have a student bible that I am going to start with. I hope that Havie will want to read the Bible with my every day, but I am not going to push it on him. I know that he will need to come to the Lord in his way and his time, just as I have. I will continue to pray for him and his relationship with God everyday. I hope that I can be a role model for him.
I have so much to work on and to tell you the truth, I don't even know where to begin. My number one concern is to ask Him to help me let go of the many masks that I've used my entire life for protection. I have much forgiving to do. I have even more loving to do. With God's guidance, I'm sure I will find my way.