Thursday, June 16, 2011
I had a little epiphany the other day driving to work. I find myself to be a yielding kind of person- aware of my surroundings, considerate of those around me, but mostly cautious. Not everyone is like this. Some people refuse to yield to anyone except maybe in imminent danger. This is a fascinating concept to me. I don't necessarily want to be that type of person, but maybe there is some kind of balance to strike?
Some recent events in my life have left me feeling totally powerless- at the mercy of those in my life. Why do I let that happen? I'm sad to have to admit that it's mostly fear. And honestly, that makes me kind of angry with myself. Why am I giving away all of the control? Why am I not making my dreams come true? Why am I compromising EVERYTHING.
It has to stop. I can't do this anymore. I'm going to try something new and maybe I will finally see the change that I've wanted for so long. I'll fake it til I make it.
Posted by brandi at 4:14 PM