Current Weight: 297.7 lbs
Loss: -6.3 lbs
Total Loss: -9.5 lbs
Emotion: Whatever
It's been 8 weeks since my last official weigh in. So much has been going on, it's kind of crazy. I wasn't really worried during that time whether or not I was losing weight- I was just trying to keep my pieces together.
When I first got here, 6 weeks ago (WOW), I immediately started working out. I just wanted to try to make myself feel better, and it worked. I guess it's endorphins or adrenaline or something to that effect, but I started feeling much stronger.
The problem is that I was still sad and confused and trying to understand why all of this has happened. I can admit I got pretty bitter. I wondered how much I have to go through in one lifetime. I've already had a horrible childhood among other personal tragedies. Seems like I've faced enough trials in this short life of mine. I was having myself a regular pity party over here. Maybe I still am.
All I know is that I've eaten enough bean and cheese burritos to last me a lifetime. You see, food is my go to comforter and now that I live in a place that I can eat my childhood favorite, Taco Villa, I've been getting my fill. Only it doesn't actually make me filled. It's bad guys. I'm well aware of it, but as of yet I haven't been able to stop it.
I need a Taco Villa intervention or something. I'm working way too hard to keep sabotaging myself this way.
To keep this from being completely negative, just let me say that I'm stoked I hit a milestone of being under 300. I don't EVER want to go back.
I know times have been hard for you lately, but you should be very proud of yourself for all of the exercise you have been doing. I know losing weight is one of your personal goals, but even if you have a month or a few months where you gain or just maintain, the exercise will make you feel better and help you be healthy--that way we can enjoy your friendship for many more years :-) I totally feel you on the Taco Villa thing--that was one of my go to foods (along with Cheddar's) when I was in Lubbock. I am also an emotional eater, so when I start feeling the "hunger," I try to get out of the house and walk around the mall or see friends that way I am distracted from it. I find that it helps a bit.
ReplyDelete"emotion: whatever" WHATEVER?!?!!!! You are doing GRRRREEEAAATTTT!!! :)
ReplyDeleteI think that all things considered it's a HUGE victory that you had a loss! I probably would have ended up gaining twice that much. You have SO much to be proud of!!!
ReplyDeleteAll things considered, I'd say you did a darn good job! Six pounds in 8 weeks is great! And welcome to the 200s!
ReplyDeleteCongrats on the loss! :) I've just read back a bit and can only imagine how hard this is on you; and while we both know it's not good for us, I totally understand the whole "eating your feelings" thing. Sending love your way.
ReplyDeleteTake every little success as it is, a success :) Congratulations on your milestone!
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