Current Weight: 297.7 lbs Loss: -6.3 lbs Total Loss: -9.5 lbs Emotion: Whatever
It's been 8 weeks since my last official weigh in. So much has been going on, it's kind of crazy. I wasn't really worried during that time whether or not I was losing weight- I was just trying to keep my pieces together.
When I first got here, 6 weeks ago (WOW), I immediately started working out. I just wanted to try to make myself feel better, and it worked. I guess it's endorphins or adrenaline or something to that effect, but I started feeling much stronger.
The problem is that I was still sad and confused and trying to understand why all of this has happened. I can admit I got pretty bitter. I wondered how much I have to go through in one lifetime. I've already had a horrible childhood among other personal tragedies. Seems like I've faced enough trials in this short life of mine. I was having myself a regular pity party over here. Maybe I still am.
All I know is that I've eaten enough bean and cheese burritos to last me a lifetime. You see, food is my go to comforter and now that I live in a place that I can eat my childhood favorite, Taco Villa, I've been getting my fill. Only it doesn't actually make me filled. It's bad guys. I'm well aware of it, but as of yet I haven't been able to stop it.
I need a Taco Villa intervention or something. I'm working way too hard to keep sabotaging myself this way.
To keep this from being completely negative, just let me say that I'm stoked I hit a milestone of being under 300. I don't EVER want to go back.