Big Girl Panties

I put them on, and I'm getting over it.

No more feeling sorry for myself. No more sitting around waiting for something to happen. It is so shameful the way I have acted and thought here recently. I have so much to be grateful for. I did some soul searching today and finally decided that it was time to move on.

I opened the windows to let some light in. Put on some music (which is still playing). Got in the kitchen and started cleaning up the mess that has been there for DAYS while I sat here feeling depressed. Sorry for myself if I'm being totally honest (which apparently I am).

Then it started happening. The music started moving me. The sun started soaking in and I started feeling... Happy? Yes, I think so. I even danced. What?!

And that's when my Heavenly Father decided to knock me upside the head. This song started playing:

Well, I knew He was talking to me. I knew that I really needed to LISTEN. I fell to my knees right there, and I just listened. I felt so full of the Spirit. And He was testifying to me.

As the song neared it's end, all of a sudden I felt a shove on my chest. My eyes popped open in shock and Georgie's nose was right in front of mine. I looked into those soulful eyes and I just giggled and cried at the same time.

How do I manage to forget this? How can I take it all for granted? Why am I filled with anything but gratitude?

I really don't know.

So, I got back up off the floor and with big girl panties firmly in place and attitude readjusted, I proceeded to CLEAN the kitchen. And I felt better when I was done. Please don't misunderstand that my world revolves around how clean my house is, but I've found that my surrounds tend to look like the way my insides feel. It needed to be done, and I needed to do it.

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