It's a new day, and I finally got some sleep. I forced myself to eat something for dinner, after which I felt much better. It's these basic functions that I need to make sure I'm taking care of right now. I need my strength physically to stay strong mentally and emotionally. I feel more connected to my body than I have in a long time. It's interesting.
Something so beautiful stretched out before me yesterday. I felt an outpouring of love like I had never experience in my life before. Now THAT is some healing power. I can't even start to tell you what it has meant to me. It's meant everything.
The first decision that I was able to make was that I had to leave town. This isn't about running away, this is about healing myself and that needs to be done back home. West Texas!
But how? Friends stepped in and gave me a place to live and a job for the summer. Seriously, aren't they great?
So, I'm putting in a two-week notice today. I'm picking up boxes after work. I'm going to reach out for help.
And I'm going to make it.
I'm so glad you've got someplace to go & people to help you feel secure and work through this! *HUGS*
ReplyDeleteHang in there! It is so important that you take care of your basic needs right now so that you can think clearly. Sounds like you have some steps in place to begin the healing process.
ReplyDeleteThat's great that you have somewhere to go!! Sometimes moving far away isn't running - it's distancing yourself. Been there too :) Moved from SC back home to NY to get away from someone - and it was the best choice I could have made. You'll do great, and it will help to be near people that care about you! Wishing you the best!
ReplyDeleteYAY BRANDI!!! So excited for you and your hope and determination! Great things will continue to follow!
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